Age, Old, Death....

The fear of death has always been one of man's greatest fear. However, the anticipation of death, is just as fearful. To fear the fear of death itself. I have heard of many old people, when reached an age beyond 80, maybe even 70, begin to worry and suffer from depression. Thinking themselves useless, a burden, ugly, etc, etc. What ever it may be, they become loss and lose meaning in their life. Like one of my granddad. He is perfectly health, relatively fit, a little absent minded, but besides that, theres absolutely nothing wrong with him. Only thing is that he has this depression as mentioned above. He locks himself in his home, refusing to go out, refusing to face the world, with tons of reasons. We literally have to DRAG him out to attend family gahterings in one of our homes.

On the other hand, my other granddad, when he was around, had suffered from a stroke, half his body isn't really functioning properly. In everyway, he should have been in a worse situation than my other granddad, but it turns out to be the other way around. He is one STUBBON old man! he refuses to sits still after his stroke. Trying every means and ways to move again. Once when he got slightly better, he actually grab the car keys, and sneak out of the house and DROVE! a 90 year-old guy who has suffered a stroke, driving around. Fortunately, the traffic police noticed him and escorted him back. Although it is a very foolish act, and kids out there shouldn't try this at home, but I kinda respect his stubboness, will and determination. He fought! He is a FIGHTER! He is the kind of old man i wanna grow up into. Never giving up. Never throw in the towel. Rather than to fear death, i think death really feared him. Too bad I didn;t really had the chance to know him.

But sometimes, u really wonder if you will become like my first mentioned granddad. The fear of FEAR itself, is scarey enough. This sometimes send you into a short dip of depression. The fear of what is yet to come. Usually people snap out of it. But for the weak, it does take time, to realise, but then again......what if you don't. "What if"....... are words that could send someone's life into c