Bad things never travel alone

Been sick for the pass few days... again!.. whats new right? Developed a bad cough since last sat... tot it was nothing.. but sunday night, it got so bad that i couldnt sleep. You know how your body tense up when you cough, well, this tensing up was so bad that my stomach, throat and HEAD was aching like crazy. At one point I swear my head was about to split into 2! Then after 5 days of suffering, i finally went to seek a second opinion from another doctor. And he said it could be a possible case of mild acute bronchities! ...... scary. So now i am taking anti-biotics and see how it goes.

As the chinese proverb goes, bad things never travel alone... yesterday i also got an email, saying i was being removed from an event that i was looking forward to, due to constrains in the number of participants set by the organiser, a chance to participate in an event that i was very VERY much looking forward. But well, when you are unskilled, untalented, just living in the dream of having the chance to participate in it for just 3 days would be great already. But i was saddened, disappointed and frustrated. But this is how things are. Those without talent, would just have to work harder. twice, thrice, a million times harder just to catch up (I guess what i put in just wasnt enough). Thus, REALITY. The world is not a fair place. You have to work hard to balance the odds. Sometimes i feel, all my life, thats what i have been doing. Not born with very good brains nor brawn, when other take 10 hrs to study, i need to put in 16. when people put in 1 yr of training, i need to put in 3.

Sometimes you just cant help but to wonder why its so unfair. But slowly i've grown to realise, that the more effort i put into it, the more i treasure it. The more it means to me. Sure, if i fail, it would hurt more too. But if i succeed, the joy is something other cannot begin to comprehend. Sounds as though i am trying to console myself? sure.. maybe. I really dont know. But no one really knows. Our lives is what we make of it. And things are never as bad as it seems, its just a matter of which perspective we see things from. isnt it?

but sometimes, some things in life, which no matter how much you try, it just doesnt help.